bad week

it is confirmed. i'm going for the prague trip. but it has caused a lot of disturbances in the family. not going to say anything. just know that it is all because of me.

ahh. i want the concert photos. but i think i'll just wait. yesterday during maths night lecture, jocelyn asked me something which i found difficult to answer. probably because i never thought of it before. not say never la. but not seriously. i guess i should really think it through.

i'm sick and tired in living in the dark. i want to be in the light. but there's no one to lead me, direct me to the path. really hate this feeling.

this week hasn't been a good week for me. problems here and there and everywhere. i can't stand it. keeping quiet most of the time. not speaking until spoken to. i guess it's not exactly a good habit. pretending seems like the only way to avoid trouble. but how to? i can't. arrgghh. i don't want to bother my friends with my personal problems. must be independent to solve my own problems. even though it won't be anytime soon before i settle everything. silence is the best way to avoid this. i can't say anything more.